My twin Tina was taken from me at the hands of man. His parole is comming up and im a wreck! Its been 13 year's of pure hell everyday i fight with resentment of other's going about there lives and of him breathing in jail talking to people who he loves and im stuck surounded by memorys of times i took for granted. things i should have done to keep her safe. But as we all know resentment is like swallowing poison and waiting for the other person to die. I have struggled with ptsd from reliving how he killed her everyday my mind wont let the thoughts go away Even at night there in my dreams i become her in my dreams and i am fighting him tring to keep him from stabing me i feel the stabs intering my body it goes on forever and if im lucky i die in my dream. the feeling of being inside the car thats on fire i open the door and tring to get away but i die there just outside the car.